The intensity, the joy, and the deep emotions that have emerged on this trip across the country can not be described in mere words. But I will try.
Three weeks ago, I embarked on a journey of my heart, one representing a love of the work I do and the people I would meet through it.

So what do I mean when I write about a higher self? Is there really an aspect of us that already is that person we are trying so hard to become? For years I have decried my inability to overcome my judgments and addictions and have doubted that the wise, compassionate, creative, peaceful person is truly in here.

It was a Monday. You see, I always start my diets on Mondays. It is my philosophy to eat well on the weekends in preparation of the dietary food shortage I will be experiencing for awhile. This particular Monday began with me feeling really jazzed about joining the ranks of the healthy eating world.

“It’s time we all stopped looking outside ourselves for the answers to why we haven’t created the life & results we want. It’s we who create the quality of life we lead and the results ultimately produced.”
~ Karen Coffey

There is a place I have come upon recently, a land unlike any others I have visited either in Spirit or in the natural world. I have named it the Not Place, for it simply is not anything. It is a place of Being in between the space of Creation and Manifestation, just to the left of Limiting Beliefs

“The future is not a result of choices among alternative paths offered by the present, but a place that is created–created first in the mind and will, created next in activity. The future is not some place we are going to, but one we are creating.”

I started jolting about 8 years ago. It started in bed at night. Just at that point when I exhaled in preparation for moving to the next level of relaxation, my body would convulse in a single, brief, powerful spasm. Unbidden, unwelcome, completely unnerving – yet incredibly and palpably present: a mini-revolt somewhere between my heart and gut.